you will be told you are a troublemaker, that the thing you can’t put into words yet that divorces you from everyone else is responsible for the way the other kids pick on you and you really must try harder to fit in. you will realise quickly that you cannot trust anybody, not really, because they will ask you to do things that break you, that will haunt you for years. you will meet people who you will revisit in nightmares and go to places that will hide behind your closed eyelids as you toss and turn at night. you will learn to be afraid. you will learn how to be afraid and still breathe. you will learn fear as survival.你会被告知你是一个麻烦制造者，你无法用语言表达的东西会让你和其他人分开，这是其他孩子对你挑剔的原因，你真的必须努力融入其中。你会很快意识到你不能相信任何人，不是真的，因为他们会要求你做一些让你心碎的事情，这会让你困扰多年。你会遇到你在噩梦中会重访的人，并会在晚上翻来覆去的时候去那些藏在你紧闭的眼皮后面的地方。你将学会害怕。你将学会如何害怕并保持呼吸。你将学习恐惧作为生存。